Words...

Okay, time for a little english lesson. Learn from it what you will. Most likely these words will mean little to you except as words you use to describe other people or perhaps things.

Main Entry: ir·re·spon·si·ble
Function: adjective
Pronunciation: "ir-i-'spän(t)-s&-b&l
: not responsible: as a : not answerable to higher authority b : said or done with no sense of responsibility c : lacking a sense of responsibility d : unable especially mentally or financially to bear responsibility

Main Entry: child·ish
Function: adjective
Pronunciation: 'chil-dish
1 : of, relating to, or befitting a child or childhood
2 a : marked by or suggestive of immaturity and lack of poise b : lacking complexity : SIMPLE c : deteriorated with age especially in mind : SENILE

Main Entry: out·ra·geous
Function: adjective
Pronunciation: (")aut-'rA-j&s
1 a : exceeding the limits of what is usual b : not conventional or matter-of-fact : FANTASTIC
2 : VIOLENT, UNRESTRAINED
3 a : going beyond all standards of what is right or decent b : deficient in propriety or good taste

Main Entry: self-righ·teous
Function: adjective
Pronunciation: -'ri-ch&s
: convinced of one's own righteousness especially in contrast with the actions and beliefs of others : narrow-mindedly moralistic

Main Entry: self-serv·ing
Function: adjective
Pronunciation: -'s&r-vi[ng]
: serving one's own interests often in disregard of the truth or the interests of others
- self-serv·ing·ly adverb

Main Entry: ex·plo·sive
Function: adjective
Pronunciation: ik-'splO-siv, -ziv
1 a : relating to, characterized by, or operated by explosion b : resulting from or as if from an explosion
2 a : tending to explode b : likely to erupt in or produce hostile reaction or violence
- ex·plo·sive·ly adverb
- ex·plo·sive·ness noun

Main Entry: apol·o·gy
Function: noun
Pronunciation: &-'pä-l&-je
Inflected Form(s): plural -gies
Etymology: Middle French or Late Latin; Middle French apologie, from Late Latin apologia, from Greek, from apo- + logos speech -- more at LEGEND
1 a : a formal justification : DEFENSE b : EXCUSE 2a
2 : an admission of error or discourtesy accompanied by an expression of regret
3 : a poor substitute : MAKESHIFT
synonyms APOLOGY , APOLOGIA , EXCUSE , PLEA , PRETEXT , ALIBI mean matter offered in explanation or defense. APOLOGY usually applies to an expression of regret for a mistake or wrong with implied admission of guilt or fault and with or without reference to palliating circumstances . APOLOGIA implies not admission of guilt or regret but a desire to make clear the grounds for some course, belief, or position . EXCUSE implies an intent to avoid or remove blame or censure . PLEA stresses argument or appeal for understanding or sympathy or mercy . PRETEXT suggests subterfuge and the offering of false reasons or motives in excuse or explanation . ALIBI implies a desire to shift blame or evade punishment and imputes mere plausibility to the explanation .


Hopefully, these are not words you, or others, would use to describe you on a daily basis. Oh, I'm sure there are times when we all feel like we've acted childish or irresponsible. I know there are times that I look back and think..."what the blazes was I thinking? Why did I do, or say, that?" But I think that when we reach that point we all know when we are in the wrong and it is time for us to suck it up and make our apologies. At least I HOPE that most, if not all, of us know when that time it.

I know that when one of my weakest moments hit me...and I knew it as it was happening. I just couldn't stop myself from my angry and hateful reactions at the time. But I can't let it go for long when I know how wrong I've been. Within hours of my mis-behavior, I was sitting at my computer composing an apology letter. Not only did I e-mail to the other person, but I also felt so guilty and the need to publicly punish myself (or something), that I actually posted the apology in my journal too.

Of course, there is always going to be a time when we need to apologize. Unless, your perfect. Hm. But I wonder about those who don't and yet they know that they should. Why don't they? Are their egos so big that they just can't get over themselves? Or are they just too ashamed to admit to their faults? Does that mean they are weak? What would they do, if it's someone they loved and cared about, and that person were to die in an accident tomorrow? What makes them think they are always right? (I mean if they don't feel the need to apologize they must feel they are right, even though they KNOW they are wrong.) Why do they feel the need to deflect the attention off their wrong-doing by attacking, or throwing blame elsewhere? Do you ever wonder about the self-confidence of someone who feels justified in attacking others (physically or verbally)? Hm, so many questions.

Yes, as you may have gathered there has been an "incident" 'round these here parts. I'm not too happy about the offending party, although I had thought they were going to make amends (apologize) to the offended party(ies). However, as far as I can tell they are going to continue their childish and egotistical behavior. I shouldn't be surprised, I suppose, seeing as the venomous attack that came from this persons mouth earlier this summer toward someone they should never ever even raise their voice to.

Well, I hope ya'll are having as wonderful a weekend as mine has been disturbing. (Did that make sense? ie: I hope your weekend has been the complete opposite as mine has been thus far.)
Jill Marie